The marvelous richness of human experience would lose something of rewarding joy if there were no limitations to overcome. The hilltop hour would not be half so wonderful if there were no dark valleys to traverse. ~ Helen Keller

Saturday, February 25, 2012

Traffic Jam

Tonka frequently hogs the doggy door, especially when it's rainy or cold and snowy (he's a sissy about going outside in bad weather). Daisy loves the snow but she's usually the one stuck in back.

This morning she seemed unfazed by the traffic jam. More often she will either nip at his legs or pace around behind him whining loudly until his butt moves out of the way, at least enough for her to squeeze through.

Sometimes I think he does this just to bug her...

Friday, February 3, 2012

Senses

Three-thirty in the morning, my bleary eyes open slightly. Behind the blinds is a soft yellowish-white muted light, as if a lantern were glowing just there, beyond the darkness, inviting me to come see.

Snow, lots of it. This storm is expected to be a doozy. We’ll see.

I peer outside and marvel at the silent scene before me. The wind is blowing--not the destructive, gale force winds we huddled through over the past month--but enough wind to make the snow swirl silently from the eaves, performing a mesmerizing snow-dance in the air before settling atop the drifts below. Silence is my companion here in the light/dark of the night/morning, where the stormy darkness is illuminated by reflected city lights on thick clouds, busily pelting out a miniature blizzard.

Only three days ago it was warm, sunny, breezy--partly spring. I walked the park trail near work, after hooking myself up to an artificial source of music in hopes of drowning out the industrial city sounds surrounding this little pocket park.

It didn’t work, at least not entirely. My feet thumped on the sidewalk with a cadence to match the tune blaring between my ears: “Everybody’s talkin’ at me, can’t hear a word they’re saying…” and here comes a person walking straight toward me. I smile and keep walking past, faster now. Crunch crunch crunch crunch crunch, is that really a sound I hear above the music? Or is it merely the sensation of gravel beneath my feet, having left the hard cement for the more natural feel of rhythmic walking on the unfinished portion of the trail.

The two ponds are still frozen in the center. A pair of geese squat on the thin ice, sleeping. Two squirrels run clickety-clack up the side of a huge cottonwood tree, one chasing the other ever upward with repeated chattering noises, so loud that the squirrel noises infiltrate the earbuds, providing a high-pitched backdrop to the next tune: "American woman, stay away from me..." Are those squirrels fighting or courting, I wonder silently to myself.

Off in the distance across the southern pond I spy a couple with a shepherd dog walking toward a single fellow, trying in vain to control an unruly puppy. The dogs greet, jump, sniff, then tangle one another in leashes, spinning and yipping with delight. Yes, I can hear this as well, above the chords strumming behind the words inside. “Well I keep on thinkin’ ‘bout you, Sister Golden Hair surprise…” come the words in my head but what my ears really latch onto is the sound of dogs laughing, joyful creatures caught up in exactly that split second of warmth and camaraderie and a right-now moment that is even more perfect than the last. Oh to be a dog.

My nose is running and I clear my throat, having reached the section of trail where the walk turns head-on into the breeze. It seems more bracing, stronger than it was on the first turn around the twin ponds. The coolness hits my face; my hair swirls about this way and that. I reach to brush it aside, latch it behind my ears, but it swipes my face again and again and again.

I return to the present moment, in front of the window, and find myself twirling a chunk of tousled hair between my fingers as I watch the snow dance around then down, down, down.

"How much snow so far?" he asks from behind me.

"About a foot."

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Square Pizza

The finished product
Square Pizza is a New Year's Eve Thompson family tradition, which my mom started years ago. She made only cheese pizza--no extra toppings--but I have changed it over the years to suit my own taste.

As kids, on New Year's Eve we were so excited at the prospect of being legally allowed to stay up past our normal bedtime. Dad would play his records and sing along as best he could (if he couldn't remember the words, he would just make them up). Occasionally he would swoop into the kitchen and try to entice mom into an impromptu dance. Sometimes she played along, other times she would respond with a terse: "Dick, for God's sake I'm trying to cook here!"

Later mom would let us have a drink, a Sloe Gin Fizz. This consisted of a very large plastic cup filled with 7-Up, mixed with a teeny tiny capful of sloe gin. Boy did we ever feel grown up.

Close to midnight we would assemble at the front door. Sometimes the weather was awful and we would abandon our outdoor celebrations in favor of indoor noisemaking. Mostly I recall evenings with biting cold and not much in the way of snow. Coats and hats and gloves would be donned over our pajamas, snowboots if necessary. Then my brother and I would jostle and push each other to be the first out the door. You see, the winner would be the lucky one who got to sit in the driver's seat of our white 1966 Plymouth Fury and honk the horn. The loser was stuck banging on the pots and pans mom had selected for their unique tonal quality.

Mom had this obnoxious cowbell. She didn't like going outside in the cold weather, so she usually hung out the front door clanging that thing endlessly.

After having one too many beers and singing one too many songs, dad was typically fast asleep on the couch long before midnight.

Nowadays the New Year arrives without much fanfare. We are early risers and go to bed equally early. Sometimes I'll get up at midnight to watch our crazy neighbors shoot off those ever-present fireworks.

Welcome 2012. Please be kind and please, cut us a little slack. We could sure use it. Thank you.

To make your very own Square Pizza, you'll need:
  • 2 packages of pizza crust mix (6.5 oz.)
  • 1 jar of pizza sauce (14 oz.)
  • about 40-50 pepperonis
  • one large green pepper, chopped
  • 1 8-oz. package of Italian Four Cheese Blend, or similar grated cheese
Spray a rectangle cookie sheet with cooking spray. The size I use is 16"x10" and about 1.5" deep. I prefer to make my Square Pizza in a deep dish variety, that's why I use two pizza crust mixes.

Prepare the pizza crust mix according to package directions. When it is in a nice round ball, drizzle about a tbsp. of cooking oil over the top and roll the ball in the oil. Cover the mixing bowl and leave it on top of the oven for about 5-10 minutes while the oven is heating up.

Before
Knead the dough a bit and then spread it out, making sure to pull the crust up on all four sides of the pan. Pour on the pizza sauce. Add the pepperoni and green pepper (or whatever toppings you choose). Cover the entire pie with cheese.

Bake at 425 degrees for 25 minutes. Let the pie cool about 5 minutes before cutting. Makes about 8 pieces.

Note: even though the pan is not "square" the slices usually are...

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

The Year of the (crazy) Dog

Family photo at Pawnee Buttes.
The Good Dog joined right in. The Crazy Dog, not so much.
In terms of the Chinese Zodiac, 2011 was actually the Year of the Rabbit. We don’t have a rabbit, but we do have two dogs: The Good Dog, and The Crazy Dog.

Tonka was thrilled to learn he had been elevated in status to The Good Dog, a title previously held by sweet Raven.

Soon after we brought Daisy home from the Longmont Humane Society, Tonka was promoted to good dog status and Daisy quickly earned her nickname, Crazy Daisy.

Yes, she’s crazy. Afraid of her own shadow and terrified of people (with the exception of Dave’s sister Barb), Daisy eats bark chips, runs headlong through the house, uses the furniture as a springboard to pounce here and there, crawls under Tonka’s belly, and flings Nylabones willy-nilly into the air. She is also a sweet, cuddly little thing and quite the novelty out in the world.

Wherever we take Daisy, people stop us with a puzzled grin and ask, “What kind of dog is that?” (cattle dog/corgi with a side of hound-dog DNA thrown in just for fun… in other words, a mutt). Because she is so darned cute, everyone wants to meet her. Daisy will have none of it. She either backs away, big round eyes darting left and right while plotting an escape route, or she hides behind one of us for safety. Fortunately, she trusts us completely and loves Tonka with all her might. We know nothing of her history but think she may have been kept locked up for most of her young life. The first few months she lived with us, it was obvious the world outside was completely foreign to her, filled with frightening sounds and danger everywhere. Slowly but surely, she is being transformed into a deliriously happy little dog.

In other news – following an MRI where she was squished into a teeny-tiny tube and forced to listen to sappy soft rock music on gigantic headphones – Debbie finally learned the cause of her chronic back pain and sciatica, then was told that spinal surgery was the best option for relief. After much second-guessing and indulging in a host of irrational fears, she decided to go through with the surgery. It was successful and five months later, she is feeling better with some minor lingering pain.

In the weeks following surgery, Dave took on a new role as home health care aide. He has also become quite the respectable househusband and doggy daycare provider. His continued job searches brought forth a flurry of interviews in spring and fall; still no offers. We remain hopeful.

Much time was spent on the road this year, with three visits to Salida, road trips along the Front Range, dog park adventures, and plenty of doctor appointments. The dogs joined us as often as possible, where Daisy discovered her new favorite thing, riding on the center console.



Ever the trooper, Dave added yet another duty to his expanding job description: Driving Miss Debbie, and Driving Miss Daisy.   J


Merry Christmas * Happy New Year * Peace on Earth
Debbie and Dave
Tonka and Daisy
(from our Christmas newsletter)

Saturday, December 3, 2011

First Love

It must have been sometime in late 1975. Barely out of high school, a friend and I were drawn to cruising in downtown Denver.

At the time I had a Mustang, a pretty little car. My friend owned a Camaro. Between the two of us we had lots of fun making the rounds.

Then one weekend I met Bob, a handsome fellow in an orange-and-black muscle car, a Chevelle. After some initial flirting across lanes of traffic, we finally pulled into a parking lot and took the time to get acquainted.

We were inseparable after that.

A year older than me, Bob was from Kodiak, Alaska. His parents sent him to Denver to attend the Denver Automotive and Diesel College, so he could learn engine maintenance in anticipation of taking over the family fishing business: mostly crab, salmon, and halibut.

We grew close very quickly. Then at the end of spring semester in 1976, he returned to Alaska.

Bob left his beloved car with me. We parted with hugs and kisses and promises, and Bob suggested I visit Kodiak later that summer. His parents were eager to meet me, and I was eager to learn more about what might potentially be my new home.

And such a wonderful visit it was! Bob took me all over the island and introduced me to some of the wildness that is Alaska.

There were places on the island where you had to stop and look both ways before crossing a dirt airstrip. Ridge top bunkers installed during World War II remained, silent sentinels looking out to sea, still watching for a Japanese invasion. The beaches were filled with black volcanic sand that formed soft round rocks around sea fossils.

Bob showed me rivers filled with spawning salmon, and taught me about his business. The time we spent together seemed to have “future” written all over it. But did it, really?

In re-reading the letters Bob sent before my visit, the tone seems soft, romantic, filled with repeated proclamations of love, tales of his daydreams about us, and his hopes for the future.

After I returned home, the letters became more matter-of-fact, less about romance and more about providing me with detailed instructions on the care and feeding of one super-hot Chevelle.

The story ends just as you might imagine. Eventually we broke up, although I never really understood why. Bob returned to Denver for his Chevelle (quite possibly his real love) and went back to Alaska.

And I mourned the loss of my first love.

This journal was spurred by a writing prompt: Found, by San Diego Momma. Thank you for the inspiration!

Saturday, November 26, 2011

A Table in Time

From a letter I wrote to my nephew, Clark

Thought I’d write a note with a little history about this table. I’m happy to give it to you so that it stays in our family. You seem like the logical person to have it next, too!

Do you remember that Cork and Kathy Snyder lived behind us? Mom and Kathy took me to visit Kathy’s grandmother at their family farmhouse. It was located at the corner of 112th and Riverdale Road, real close to where you lived when you were a little boy. The farmhouse is still there, although they sold it and the land years ago.

I don’t know what year we got it but it must have been the early 1960s, I was just a little girl. Behind the farmhouse was a separate garage and in there was this desk. They were using it for potting plants. Seems like I recall it being painted black or maybe brown, but I could be wrong about that. The drawer was off to the side, it did not have drawer pulls and the brackets to hold the drawer in place had been broken.

Mom really loved the look of the table, even though it was painted and she didn’t know what was underneath. After we brought it home, she painted it barn red (the color of the shake shingles on the house, probably with leftover outside paint!). Dad put in some boards to hold up the drawer and then he added the drawer pulls. He used that colonial variety to keep the drawer from being pushed too far back.

The table was usually in the basement bedroom, right underneath that little window between mom’s drapery room and the bedroom. By the way, don’t you just love the quirkiness in that house, I mean really… who puts a window in between a utility room and a bedroom? Oh wait, I know, my parents!

Your dad used the desk for years, for assembling and painting his model airplanes, plus any other painting projects he worked on. Soon the top was covered with little marks of different colors, yellow and blues and whites, from when his painting went astray.

Then sometime in the early 1970s, mom discovered a furniture refinishing company. It was in the strip mall at 88th and York. She had lots of furniture pieces that needed some work and the guy who owned it gave her a good deal. She decided to have this desk dipped and stripped.

When we all saw the desk, we could not believe how beautiful it was! That quarter-sawn oak is so lovely, who would ever paint over it? But I guess that was common years ago, to paint over fine wood. Sad, if you ask me.

I have always loved this desk, especially with its imperfections and because it reminds me of special times in my life. Mom loved it too, and your dad as well. I know they both would be happy that it’s going to be in your hands.

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Stuffed


This picture of my husband Dave was on the front page of the Rocky Mountain News, the day after Thanksgiving (about 1962).

Dave's dad was an editor at the paper.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Scared of the Dark

There was a nightlight in the little room with pale pink walls. Plugged into the east wall, I insisted that it be turned on each night after mom lovingly tucked me in, always with a sweet hug and kiss goodnight.

“I don’t get you,” she once told me. “When we go camping in the mountains, sleep in a tent, where wild animals roam around in the dark and you can’t see your hands in front of your face, there--of all places--you fall asleep instantly!” She could not understand why her little girl had such a phobia in the safety of her own home, when she was not scared of the dark out in the wilderness.

Before an extra bedroom was built in the basement, my brother and I shared that little pink room. Well, it wasn’t pink at the time, more a turquoise color as I recall. We had bunk beds in a cute colonial style, the kind you could take apart and make into separate beds if needed. When the basement bedroom was complete, the bunk beds came apart. Ted got his own room: The Middle Bedroom.

That’s how they were known, much like in Goldilocks: The Little Bedroom, The Big Bedroom, and The Middle Bedroom, which was located straight down the hallway from the living room.

My nightlight was on that night, but as usual the shadows cast eerie shapes here and there. The wind was blowing. I listened to the metal threshold plate on the front door screaming in the wind, a frightening sound peculiar to our house.

When I could take no more, I crept into The Middle Bedroom and woke my brother. “Can I sleep with you?” Ever the protector, he always agreed.

Now, I don’t know why he had his bed facing straight out the door and down the hallway. I would never have set it up that way, much too spooky. I sandwiched myself between my brother and the wall, and promptly fell asleep.

Later, after midnight, we both woke to hear the hardwood floors creaking and groaning. Soft footsteps. A sound near the front door. What’s that? It was unspoken but we shared those silent words. Two little heads popped up from the pillow, eyes big as saucers, peering into the darkness down the hall.

And then, just then, we saw a figure in white gliding across the end of the hallway from right to left. Our hearts began pounding in our chests.

Another noise quickly followed, that of a chair being kicked, its legs scraping across the wooden floor, followed immediately by the thundering low, loud sounds of the bass keys on the upright piano.

“Dammit!” The kitchen light flicked on, followed by muttered words and the sound of a match.

This was no ordinary ghost. It was mom, pacing in the middle of the night, checking to make sure the front door was locked, indulging in a bit of late night worrying over one last cigarette. She had tripped over grampa's chair near the kitchen entrance and slammed her hand into the piano keys.

Phew. We were safe. At least for one more night…

The inspiration for this story came from a writing prompt: Spooky Story, by San Diego Momma. Thanks for the idea!

Friday, September 2, 2011

Anniversary Tribute

Today is our ninth anniversary. Dave and I were both late bloomers, we met in mid-life and each married for the first time at age 45.

Similar in many ways yet complete opposites in others--the sensitive, romantic dreamer and the sensible, logical science guy--we are a good match. He has been especially kind to me this year, helping me prepare for and then recover from surgery. His recent unemployment has been stressful at times but turned out to be a blessing in disguise. Dave was right here with me when I needed him most, and was my very favorite nurse during this entire experience.

I never knew you could love someone the way I love Dave. So this video is my tribute to my one true love.